Thursday, February 12, 2009

People who make me cry

Those who know me well - know that I am just not much of a cryer. Yet the sheer reality of this season in our lives has me wearing tears on my cheeks more often than I would like.

One evening right before Christmas I was standing in the kitchen opening up the mail. On this particular night there was a card and a check from my grandparents in Fordyce for $50. I started feeling tears burning in the corners of my eyes. Then there was another card from Skip May with a check for $200...and tears began to run over. Then there was another card from Ms. Ula. Along with her card and Christmas gift...was an envelope for the girls....with a $2 bill for each of them. Sobs began to clutch my throat. Not only were these financial gifts timely. But the love and thought behind each of them blanketed me with such a feeling of being cared for.

Especially for Macy and Mia. We left a place where they were so loved and cherished. Everyone brightened when they saw them. Here, no one really knows them. They don't get "special" little things anymore. They probably haven't noticed - but Ms. Ula's card brought back all of the memories of people showering love on my children. So I headed to the shower trying to hold myself together....and on my way up the stairs I look down to see our picture of Ms. Linda and Melinda.....and the rivers of tears broke through the dam! Linda loves all children...sure....but she showed LOVE to our girls. Good grief at the tears. I spent probably 20 minutes sobbing in the shower. Just from the love we received in the mail....and the love that I miss.

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